The secrets you keep have helped you to survive at one point or another when you didn't have the ability or tools to do so in other ways but the secrets you have held onto for so long and the secrets you still keep need to be told.
To the right people of course- those who can provide support, help and be trusted so you can grow and be set free from the devil angel merry go round and their skipping ropes and cruel jokes.
What irony to be surrounded by such warmth while suffocating in such coldness.
The secrets you keep, keep you sick and suffering in shame and silence.
It is written in the first person from Ryan's point of view and was posted in installments on livejournal.
The fic was backdated and reposted on AO3 by the author in 2017.
Brendon Urie, born on April 12,1987 is an American musician, singer and songwriter who is best known as the lead vocalist of a band called Panic!
at the Disco, of which he is the only original member remaining. George, Utah, United States, his father’s name is Boyd Urie and his mother’s name is Grace Nani Urie.
It's a process that takes lots of time, little by little as letting go of what has taught you to survive isn't a simple or all or nothing process however it can and does get better.
Knowing that the secrets you keep, keep you sick aka "safe" can keep you that way though that safe is often a false sense of safe yet feels and seems like very real safety and perhaps sometimes it is and has been...
Ryan has a bad relationship with his alcoholic father and was childhood friends with Spencer before they started making music.