I'm not even sure whether to go or not because I think it's going to be so awkward.We are happy and enjoy each other's company as long as I know my place as one poster pointed out, that's really not fair @Mariana Moated Grange thank you so much! I'm starting to feel like the bad guy and selfish for wanting a holiday with him!
I don't think it's got anything to do with his late DW tbh.
OP he is being ridiculous with the holiday comment.
On our first holiday after we'd been together just over a year, I know it was difficult for him because he spoke about his late DW for the first three days.
We went on to have a fantastic holiday that was 'our' holiday creating our memories, not reminiscing about his past holidays.
It's a bit of a deal breaker for me I've realised because I think he's being selfish and not considering me at all. He wanted to take me out to dinner as an apology but I said no because I don't feel like an apology is good enough.
Maybe it's me that's being selfish I'm actually really not sure any more but I'm so hurt and so confused. Saying sorry but not changing his actions leaves me in the same boat!Again that's fine with me, I will go with someone else, but I think it is more to do with the destination because he wouldn't go with her either.My BF still has a photo of her as his phone screensaver which is fine by me because he can see me in real life.We then went on another holiday a few months after and there was no mention of his DW at all.There is a destination I would love to go to but he has said that he wouldn't go with his DW so won't go with me.Although she is still a part of his life and always will be, especially as they have DC's, I always feel that I'm his future.