These things wouldn't be possible if I were to marry a woman.
He didn't like that he sent me messages through the most famous gay dating site of India one day and I replied to him the next day. Then he added that someone had proposed him, and he wanted to know what my reaction was! Why should I care for the person who, after two months of rosy talk, suddenly disappeared into thin air without considering my anguish over one-sided love?
However, we're still in contact and chat occasionally.
With an air of confidence he claimed, "I can handle the both." I'm still rebuking myself why I allowed myself to get so close to him, as he had confirmed at the beginning of our messaging that he'd married a girl too.
But silly me, I fell in love with him and later realized that to live under the same roof every day with him wasn't possible at all. If I was online he went offline, with no reply to my emotional and painful messages.
The most haunting question of my life is; should I get married to a man or woman?
On the road or on computer screen, television, or wherever my eyes fall, they're searching for the men.
I thought of him all the time, weaving the dream of a happy life ahead with him.
But God knows why he stopped replying to my last two mails.
But while masturbating, I dream of having woman most of time.
If I come across a naked couple, I'll definitely stare at the male I was in love three times, but only with men.
For six months, we conversed through e-mails, overflowing with descriptions of how we loved each other. But in a moment of excitement, when I asked if he'd wait for me until I finished my study, got a job, and gathered the money to travel there, he replied in the next mail that he could wait even ten years for Me The exact words he used were, "I love you more than my life itself!